I feel sentiments, no longer emotions. Sentiments, or feelings, I don’t know how to call them; love, a perfect example - are always there, of course, they are so strong that I wonder how we could ever negate them; it seems to me that we can put a blindfold on the eyes of the heart, and that’s all. We can fool ourselves but we can’t kill the sentiments. Even if we’re willing, it’s only cheating with them - with ourselves.
I found out that when there no longer are emotions, we stop being our thoughts’ and reactions’ puppet. And there is this calm, this peace that takes their place. In fact, they always were here, simply hidden by our emotions. It is disturbing at first. Not feeling so much emotional turmoil inside, we may feel empty, at least strange. To me, and to this day, it still is. We are not used to peacefulness. And truly, this is really the opposite of emptiness. It is the discovery and the knowledge, deep inside, that we are already whole. And that is what we are.